Acceptance

Acceptance

For years I fought Her

Every hour of every day

Relentlessly 

In a campaign that lasted

Close to a decade

The only casualty of war

Was Me

In a world of false dichotomies

It was win or lose

Lose and be lost

No surrender

So I fought on

On and on and on

Dreams ripped apart

By a raging mind

Sleep fractured by

Curses screamed

Waking aching from

Lashing out

At my invisible enemy

A lifetime blown apart

By rage

Body and Soul locked

In conflict

And then came peace

Sudden and all at once

It took about a year to arrive

Landing as She and I

Sat together 

As we always have

Beneath the Birch

The breeze

Breathed a slow acceptance

Into my memory

Understanding arrived

Like the Hawk of the Dawn

From the East

Waking gentleness

Mind bathed in realisation

That there were no factions

No separateness

No Her

No Me

Oneness enveloped us

In our shared suffering

Serenity and compassion

Replaced hostility

Grace finally arrived